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Sunday- Caramel beurre salée ice cream, fair milk shake, too much food, just as on Saturday. Sleep, 12 hours and not enough. Feeling comfortable. Staying in my cave while it's raining outside. Monday. Pilgrimage through the city just to find a bunch of dumb and customer-unfriendly piercers. Why do so few service providers get their jobs?
Wellbeing, more sleep, home, sleep, too much food again, sleep.
Decisions. Didn't I make enough decisions for the next weeks? 
Making decisions and sticking to it are two different things. Or not? We'll see.
Rimbaud is luring me to Paris. Bataille into his sphere.
Time to re-open my mind after---oh I didn't mention it yet I found that I passed all 6 exams.
On more proof that multiple choice questions don't say much about what you learn, you just increase the odds for passing.
But do my very good grades mean that I totally got what the subject was about?
I won't choose geriatry over jediatry :).
And how can I have a very good and mediocre grade in the same subject?
Shouldnt exam questions be representative?
Or do I, as a professor, just have to show the world how innovative I am in asking questions to which you don't find an answer in any book and which I don't answer in my lecture?
Well, I'll retreat to Jünger, at first.
"Das Menschliche ist heute unter dem Nebensächlichen versteckt und aufgeteilt." That seems to be true to me. Maybe our friends are those whose human traits we find among the arbitrary, responding to our own humanity. Answering like an echo in the void (can there be an echo in the void? In any case, it sounds good).
(quote from "Myrdun"- Eidsbygda, 20. of August 1935)
One last Jünger quote for today:
"...denn mit jeder Mauer, die er errichtet, baut der Mensch ein Stück der uralten Zwingburgen aus, in denen die List des Weltgeistes ihn gefangenhält" from "Myrdun- an bord 26/27. August 1935"
building castles, buildings that last, does it give sth eternal to the human, some truth to the world, or do we just capture ourselves in it, keeping us away from reaching new shores?
I've expressed myself more clearly before, I know.
Some thoughts are hard to hold on to, once thought