I just came back from a "shopping tour"- although, can you call something where you arranged where to be when exactly and what to look for exactly a shopping tour?
Well ok, lookin at the LUSH products wasn't exactly planned...that store is like a big playing ground for women, mostly...I'd say.
I've seen that store often, when I still studied nearby every day, but it never came to my mind to check it out.
I never knew what revulsion you could call it almost for jasmin I had...I always thought I liked it, but I could count on the ingredients table to say "jasmin" when I really hated the smell of something.
And stay away with frakincense too....I always start feelin' sick when I smell that...
At last, I learned the difference between a "conditioner" and a "spülung"...there is none.
The stuff you could put on your face to apparently clean is was cool though...maybe just because in secret, i like to get dirty, I have the "calamity jane complex" or I love licorice...inside of me and on me ^^
The shower gel with Patchouly (I know, very surprising) called "grass" wansnt bad either, and the one with grapefruit that smelled like alcohol...maybe I imagined a shade of gin...do I become a drinker?
Anyway...right after that I got surprised by ppl who apparently say "Döner" 1000x a day...and nothing else! Maybe "to go" but that's it...
Such a onesided vocabulary really scared me.
Then, I was looking for the "white album" cause with horror, I decovered that I don't have it at home.
Also with horror, I found that the HUGE store at Alexanderplatz didn't have it.
Isn't that sad? Or am I just "out" cause I still love the Beatles? Or cause I should have had it already?
At "least" I got my earphones to blank out weird ppl on the train.
Going home from the tram, I realized that this would be the last time I'd walk that way home from it...as it was the last time I took the bus that's always too late, and the last time I did grocery shopping in the store across the road...
which made me sad, melancholical...
I know that it's also the start of sth new and probably not all that bad but...
That's just me...The Berlin glass is almost empty.
I'm startin' to miss it already even if I'm still here.
really know what you mean about the feeling just before you start to move on. it is - even though the new things might be much better - so very melancholical. it seems to me that it is that way with all things we get accompanied to. we rely on them somehow and do not see small things but when they are gone we do somehow miss even bad things about it. maybe it is cause these habits just remind me of all the good things that did happen there? not sure...maybe...but i guess moving away from paris will be much the same melancholic. and i do prefer not getting used to moving too much. it is nice to still remember again..take your time :)
ReplyDeleteone should see it as moving on but right now it feels more like moving away...into the far, scary alien world ^^ (yeah alien as alien...monster thingy^^)
ReplyDeletewell i certainly won't miss the elevator that never works when u need it ;) ahhhh i *so* hope it's workin tomorrow or i'll throw all my stuff out of the window, or so i planned...
i know...maybe even worse (moving away from paris) cause i now know I'll come back here but when the year is over, it's not clear whether i'll be back again
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G9hO25z1Fu8 i *soooo* love that song :((( :))))
I remember what it was like comin back from the US although it wasnt such a great year in all its facets...
i felt alienated and couldn't even speak german :) i hope i won't have to talk that much german once i'm there...or that it will be easy to switch
take my time?
hey this blog is really lookihng good!! much better than mine...:-) i have to bookmark it, when I get home. U have to post something everyday, please! :-)
ReplyDeletewell i do love to be melancholic sometimes. it is not a bad thing. take your time being that way. or isnt it nice too? :)
ReplyDeletewell...maybe the leaving again will be strange, but isnt it somehow nice not to fall asleep in one place. moving around can keep alive ... we are fortunate being able to do it though
i'll be back is cool :)
strange though cause i mostly ignored the beatles, as i only knew the better known songs and only strange people heard them, but some songs i didnt know do seem much better than i thought. ^^
guess i have to learn french if you dont want to switch to german...but at least we could opt for english then? ;p
You should be feeling melancholical, it's completely normal. You're leaving your personal space, the place where you grow up, the place where you learn how to be just like you are... it's absolutley understandable.
ReplyDeleteBut now, you have to look to your upcoming reality, which will give so many different feelings and experiencies... there's nothing better than growing up with diversity... knowing different people, cultures, points of view, ways of life. All that stuff will give you the possibility to choose between one way or another in so many aspects, you will know the different and respect it.
So... we'll always come back home, but also... we'll have home in our hearts all the time too, because home is where the heart is :)))
thanks florida girl ;) how was ur first day? i had too much time to "style it" today, dont u think its too colorful?
ReplyDeleteor i had too much time because i didnt wanna pack ;)
yes bookmark it
i ll try
hope the internet works out at my parents' place ahhhhh i m addicteddddd
sandro-me too, i had this seminar: early modern melancholy and i just love black bile :)
ReplyDeletehaha and did u see the exibition? melancholie and saturn? no the other way round? i loved it
need to have the book from that exibition!!
fall asleep in a figurative sense? well...i like to have my little cave actually
i love the 2 voices together in i ll be back!
well ignoring the beatles is always a very bad thing
well i m strange too and i <3 them!
i cant believe u didnt have such a good opinion about them!
english or italian maybe :)
claudia_ maybe i thought it would be easier cause i already left for a year...but it's never easy...just as sandro said exactly when you leave u start to realize what meant sth to u cause u suddenly start missing it
ReplyDeleteour brains are weird!
you're right, i love variety too, it gives the spice to life :)
well i told you anyway, i dont feel *that* connected to berlin somehow, i always had the impression i had to go to middle or south america somehow...dont ask me why, its just a feeling
<3
good night sweetheart, moving in 6.5 hours i gotta get some sleep
un bacio grande per te :)
You don't know how much you care for something until it's gone, that's for sure :)
ReplyDeleteI'll be glad to receive you in latinamerica whenever you want, you already know you have someone to trust around here :)))
Goodnight dear and good luck tomorrow!!
UN BACIO GRANDE PER TE CON TUTTO IL CUORE!! <3
you still have to be rational and let go of the stuff thats "too much"...not good for you, that's keeping you from being the person you are, holding you down, yeah, i am talkin to myself,
ReplyDeletethe excess load of the boat
crois-moi, i *soo* want to come and see you...and yes, it's strange cause we've never actually met, I really belive i *do* can trust you...
and it really means sth to me...i think i'm kinda picky about "my people" so... :)
thanks, i survived
gonna update now :)
ahhhh con tutto il cuore :))))) tu me fais siiii sentimentale! <3 <3 <3
strange and nice blog..dont be afraid..Paris as Berlin or London very cosmopolitain, rich, beautifull and wellcoming city..baci
ReplyDeleteis strange a compliment ^^?
ReplyDeletewe'll see how welcome i feel soon :)))
not that i become an optimist
that could be fatal to me ;)
I hate lush. The bloody smell. What is wrong with good old fashioned soap?
ReplyDeleteselena: figurative. yes. it is about falling asleep in one place. but that is more in your mind than outside. you can actually stay in one place - call it your cave - and be more open minded, than the 20 year traveller, who's given up.
ReplyDeletebut i didnt have a bad opinion about the beatles. i just had none. the stuff i heard till then just did not touch me, so it was music i could just not understand, what does not mean it is bad. never thought that. but well, yes, life is short, so i can not hear everything all the time. there is quite a lot of things to explore and i believe it is not bad to have done everything others did. i'll get to know more - even old music - as long as i am still alive.
so not bad, just none. but people always feel sort of strange when you tell them, that you dont know something they do admire very much. it seems to them as it is if "you'll have to know them to understand me". maybe. but they are most likely not the only ones saying what there is to be said :-)
play me some beatles you really love and i'll listen. crawling through a discography this big is ...aww...maybe later :)
i can also sometimes sound very cold when it comes to music. i love it with my heart, but then again, for me it is more like, i try to express what i feel on my own, though sometimes only music can, i do try.
haha, tony, yeah it's like a shopping paradise for teenaged girls i have the impression but i still *had* to check it out once :)
ReplyDeletedon't you wanna put coal and licorice in your face too ;)?
plus...there are also sooo many kinds of soap...
maybe u have an insider tip for non-lushers ^^